My mother instilled a deep fear of spiders in me while I was growing up. I have kids that love them and have zero fear. I have always worked really hard to not instill my fears into my children. Snakes was also a big one and now I live with 4 and handle most of their care. Love them! They do not affect me at all anymore. I don't know that spiders will be as easy. I get hot and sweat and shake. I feel dizzy. I have nightmares often about not being able to get away. Usually they are not coming after me but they are just all over and I can't get to a place where they are not. I want to get to a place where I can be OK. I have been standing by the glass case and even taking a peek at the pet store I get our feeders from. Yesterday we were cleaning up the back yard and I found a spider. I kinda forced myself to look at a minute and decided I would take a picture of it and then just leave it where it was. This is a pretty big step. I would usually kill a spider. So here it is. Its kinda pretty..... While I had the camera out I saw this little guy. I have not seen one of these since I was a kid in Oregon.