So I have a DEEP running fear of spiders and other 8 legged invertebrates but I want to work on getting over it so that I can become comfortable with them. I want to know if anyone could recommend a tarantula that I could start with. I have been working up a little bit, I don't go near spiders or other inverts but I have worked on being tolerant and have gotten off of the whole "OMG IT'S GOING TO KILL ME, KILL IT KILL IT!" mentality and have learned to just get the **** over them being around. So I want to know what people would recommend as a started tarantula as well as maybe give a care sheet so that I can get an idea of what I will need to make sure it lives. I don't want anything that gets too large... That will just give me nightmares, I just want something of moderate size (don't plan on handling it) and the information on cleaning etc so that I can take care of it properly... Oddly enough this fear only really goes towards tarantulas and spiders, scorpions don't quite scare me as much though so any opinions or recommendations are appreciated. Thanks in advance guys.