Even though I have known that our time together was coming to an end I am not recovering from the loss of Penny. I had to have her euthanized on the 20th. It was clear that she wasn't having any fun anymore. She was confused and couldn't get comfortable. She would lay down next to me and whine. This is the first time I have ever lived without a dog- I hate it- but I am do not want to feel this profound heartbreak again.