Long time no talk, eh?

Hello again,

i havent been on ANY of my reptile websites in such a long time. i am very upset over that. i dont know what really happened. i dont want to say i lost interest, because thats hurtful. i think it has more to do with other things getting in the way pushed herps out of my life.

i feel like a horrible owner, because i feel like i have neglected my reptiles. they arent showing any symptoms of being sick, but i feel horrible. i have a VERY VERY VERY non-regulated feeding schedule, and they might go for weeks at a time (maybe 2 or 3) without eating, their cages dont always have water in the bowls, and might go a few days without. the cages arent always clean when they should be. ill end up waiting a while afterwards to clean the cages when i know they should be clean when i first see it.

i dont take them out anymore. i havent in a while, quite a long time actually. again, i dont know why any of this happened, and i have no excuse for it other than blaming it on depression, but i dont feel i should do that.

i know my red tail boa should be bigger than he is now, and i feel absolutely horrible that i have stunted his growth, because i have had him since july and he hasnt grown THAT much, i mean, he has grown. hes shed about 3 or 4 times, and the last one really recently. but hes still under 3 feet and very very skinny.

he should be bigger and i know it.

my red tail has to be the most aggresive one i have, so when i DO get the urge to take him out he will bite the heck out of my hand to the point where i dont get him out and cant take it.

i know thats making it worse too

i WANT to be better. thats why i have come back here. i have forgotten some things that i used to know before, but i do remember the basics.

i will take better care of them, and some how i want to tame down my red tail and i want to get him to the right size, and get him the right tank (hes in a 20 long right now, but SEEMS fine)

sorry that im such a bad parent.

any comments / advice you can give me would be GREATLY appreciated


thanks

oh, and by the way, glad to see all your names again. and hows everyone doing?

Welcome back John we missed you. Maybe now that you are here you can get back into the swing of things and get those herps back to tip top shape.

Welcome back! We missed you!

Hope you will get the excitement back for your herps! Don't give up!

Well I am not going to say I condone your actions, but maybe with a little coaxing, things wont get this bad again...but kudos to you for having the courage to be truthful ....and now its time to get on the ball with your reptiles...good luck and welcome back to our "REALITY" lol...Lyn

Welcome back John. It's been awhile.
Sounds like its time to get back on the stick! At least you recognize that you have had a problem. Now its time to change THAT!
You say that you haven't been feeding. Is it possible that the boa's attitude is due to plain old fashioned hunger? If it is starving, any warm moving target is going to look pretty good to it!

Welcome back John! Maybe hanging around here again will give you the will to take better care of the lives you have in your care that depend on you!