i havent been on ANY of my reptile websites in such a long time. i am very upset over that. i dont know what really happened. i dont want to say i lost interest, because thats hurtful. i think it has more to do with other things getting in the way pushed herps out of my life.
i feel like a horrible owner, because i feel like i have neglected my reptiles. they arent showing any symptoms of being sick, but i feel horrible. i have a VERY VERY VERY non-regulated feeding schedule, and they might go for weeks at a time (maybe 2 or 3) without eating, their cages dont always have water in the bowls, and might go a few days without. the cages arent always clean when they should be. ill end up waiting a while afterwards to clean the cages when i know they should be clean when i first see it.
i dont take them out anymore. i havent in a while, quite a long time actually. again, i dont know why any of this happened, and i have no excuse for it other than blaming it on depression, but i dont feel i should do that.
i know my red tail boa should be bigger than he is now, and i feel absolutely horrible that i have stunted his growth, because i have had him since july and he hasnt grown THAT much, i mean, he has grown. hes shed about 3 or 4 times, and the last one really recently. but hes still under 3 feet and very very skinny.
he should be bigger and i know it.
my red tail has to be the most aggresive one i have, so when i DO get the urge to take him out he will bite the heck out of my hand to the point where i dont get him out and cant take it.
i know thats making it worse too
i WANT to be better. thats why i have come back here. i have forgotten some things that i used to know before, but i do remember the basics.
i will take better care of them, and some how i want to tame down my red tail and i want to get him to the right size, and get him the right tank (hes in a 20 long right now, but SEEMS fine)
sorry that im such a bad parent.
any comments / advice you can give me would be GREATLY appreciated